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DnD - The Colossus Slayer - Bag of Nails
The Colossus Slayer (An Ode to Bag of Nails)
Gather round ye young and old,
For a story to now unveil!
An exploit of adventure and courage alike
Of the legend, Bag of Nails!
A Tabaxi he may be,
With whiskers white and gray;
Leather armor and a crown of ferns,
A hunter all the way!
A strange bunch, he came across
Yet he joined the motley crew;
And with careful steps and wisdom had
Led them through the Lost City of Omu.
Twas not long when snakes and stone
Parted way to a shadow over the sun,
And from the skies did descend
Klauth, the ancient red dragon.
But Bag of Nails, he did not waver,
And so to save his adopted son and
As well as the rest of the crew,
Declared a fight with the beast, just one-on-one!
Klauth was not phased and gave no heed
As he scooped the bard in his claw,
And that was when brave Bag of Nails
An opportunity to attack, he saw.
He nocked an arrow on his bow
And let it loose on the colossal creature!
It turned to lightening in mid flight
And struck true to the large re
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Nikki
Artist | Hobbyist | Other
United States
My name is Nicole, though you can also call me "Nikki" or "Kairy".
I'm an adult (according to the numbers, at least), and I have ASD (autism).

I don't need to be "cured", I'm not an idiot, and I'm not dangerous. I'm just another person who loves to draw, write, read (fanfiction and mystery fiction), play video games, and watch anime.

In fact, I'm pretty big on raising autism awareness. I've decided to dedicate my art to that, which is why I run the AuTalkz comic series, and do at least one drawing every April for Autism Awareness Month.
I may not be good at public speaking, but I can talk through my drawings.

I've been drawing for over 15 years, now, and I'm completely self-taught except for about 1-2 months of college Photoshop class (which I nearly failed miserably, to be perfectly honest).

I like getting comments on my artwork, and though I might not reply to all of them, I do read them. ^^

Nice to meet you!!


Personal Quote
"I'd rather be called weird a million times over than called homogenous even once."


Other Media/Sites
Patreon
Anime Planet
Fanfiction dot Net


Favorite Quote(s)
"Love people for who they are, instead of judging them for what they're not."

"Sometimes I think the surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that none of it has tried to contact us." (Calvin & Hobbes)

"Two things in this world are infinite; the universe and human stupidity…and I’m not too sure about the universe." (Albert Einstein)

"Just cause you are divided by an LCD screen, 10000miles of copper wire, and 20 feet of radio waves, it doesn't mean you have an excuse to be rude."
Interests

What did you think of BGT's Robert White's "can't think straight so I'm autistic" joke? 

52%
32 deviants said Inappropriate, especially with how the word is being used as an insult
36%
22 deviants said Hurtful towards people on the spectrum
8%
5 deviants said Nothing wrong with it
3%
2 deviants said Other (please comment below)
I feel like I didn't properly communicate my last status post (it was a lot to take in, looking over it), so I just want a couple things to be clear:

-I'm not disappearing from DA; regular drawings (including some from the AuTalkz cast) will still be uploaded.

-It's just $1 a month to see the AuTalkz comics (which I might start doing weekly since I'll be charging for them) on Patreon.
Only specials (special issues, character profiles which I intend to do, sketches, and sneak-peeks will require a larger pledge).

-The current issues will be staying up on DA; I'm not taking them down due to this.

-I'm not doing this out of greed, and had been thinking about this decision for a long time.
I'm grateful for the couple people who understand why I'm doing this. 
SSI pays at poverty level.  Like I said, I'm getting $530 a month...I can't even afford my own apartment with that (even on food stamps for food).  My car insurance costs about $150 a month, so once that's subtracted, I'm only earning $380 a month on SSI.  That gives me just enough money to maybe get a haircut every couple of months (about $30), pay my credit card bill from groceries and art supplies (about $100), and leaves me with around $250...oh, right.  Cellphone bill is about $60 for a flat rate (I rarely use my phone), and then the cost of pet supplies ($50-80 or so a month).  That leaves me with just over $100 saying that I don't have any extra expenses that month.  I can put in the tiny amount I'm earning on Patreon so far, but there's that pesky limit on how much I can save up...so, every month, that tiny amount goes to help paying bills.
See what I'm dealing with?
Understand yet why I need to push Patreon?
I'm literally living on a poverty level, and if I wasn't still living with my dad, I'd be out on the street because I can't afford housing.  Then, there wouldn't be ANY comics or drawings.  I'm terrified of what's going to happen in the future since my father isn't going to be around forever.

Okay?  I'm not doing this to be greedy or "lock people out behind paywalls".  I'm doing it because I'm an adult and I need to survive.  AuTalkz has been running for TWO YEARS (three, if you count the first season).  I've gotten a little monetary support, but I sadly can't keep doing something on a regular basis which earns me no money.
I wish I could, but I literally can't afford to.  I knew some people would be upset, and I apologize.

Again, I'm not leaving DA...I'll still be uploading drawings here, as well as autism awareness and anti-bullying artwork (perhaps with Kairy and some of the AuTalkz crew, but not in comic format like AuTalkz is).

I wish I could keep doing this for free, especially since autism awareness is important and I wanted it to be free.  That's why I'll maybe make a couple unrelated drawings and artwork and keep them here, but actual AuTalkz issues will be moving to Patreon for $1 a month (if I go weekly, you're getting 3-4 issues for $1.  If I stay monthly, you're getting 2 for $1.  Frankly, I think that's a good/reasonable deal and I'm actually getting the short end of the stick with that pricing).
I do feel that I've covered many important topics already in AuTalkz; I might occasionally post something here if I feel it's super important and should be free for everyone to see.

I've been at war with that for a while; I want it to be free, but I want to get off of SSI and get off of the poverty-level amount they pay me and the possibility of being kicked off the program for no specified reason (I have to go for yearly reviews and interviews with psychologists they choose to question me).  I've had to stop advertising to petsit for people so I don't wind up earning just enough that they'll kick me off of SSI, but less than the amount I'd get on SSI.
It's a balancing game which suxxors, and my life is on the line.

I'm sorry that some of you are angry; I knew that would happen.  If you're not an adult, you'll understand when you get into the working world...especially if you fall into the category of being unable to work (combined with no college degree).  I'd like to be able to get good insurance, because America is freaking DEAD LAST when it comes to medical care and if I want to know I'm getting good care, I have to pay out of pocket because my meager insurance (Medicaid) doesn't cover it.
Hell, Medicare covers more than Medicaid does.  There are a lot of doctors I've had to stop seeing because though they take Medicare patients, they don't take Medicaid patients...and I don't qualify for Medicare.
Not to mention that the government is trying to cut/gut the entire thing and probably always will be looking to do so (especially the Republicans for some reason I don't understand).

I'm turning 35 years old this month.  Most people I know are working successful jobs, are married...some even have kids!  They can afford to have multiple pets, their own apartment (and even their own HOUSE), ect.
Meanwhile, I'm like the epitome of the "still living in mom's basement" (only it's my dad's house).
If I don't do this, I'll wind up like the Giving Tree when she first became a stump.  Give and give for free until there's nothing left...sadly, life can't work like that in the adult world.

I hate it.
I honestly hate that. 
I hate how much value is on money, but it's necessary to live and survive.
I want to keep doing all this stuff for free, but I can't unless I plan to wind up in a gutter somewhere.

This is reality.  I want to make people happy and help folks...and it'd be really awesome if I could find a way to do that and get paid for it.  Right now, this is the only thing which comes close.

_______
Commissions are CLOSED, Requests are CLOSED, Trades are CLOSED.

Please consider supporting my artwork!  You can donate over at my page on Patreon!

AuTalkz; An observational comic providing insight about what it's like living with autism, OCD, and Anxiety!

3DS FC:  4785-5575-0704  (if you add me, drop me a note so I know, and don't forget to tell me your code, too!)

AuTalkz Infinity, the official store for AuTalkz merchandise!

Toby's Tales - Curse of the Stairwell, a Visual Novel game.

Click to check out my fanfiction stories!

Take a peek at The Mystic Den for Zellie items!  All proceeds will go to the American Cancer Society!

Link to Lightening Spliced, a novel written by my best friend who, unfortunately, passed away from cancer in September 2010.  Please check this out if you're interested; all proceeds will go to the American Cancer Society.
  • Listening to: "Wiggle and Wine" by Donchez Dacres
  • Reading: Fanfiction
  • Watching: Braille Skateboarding
  • Playing: Divinity Original Sin 2

Activity


At the response from my last status update, many people seem very ill-content with my decision to charge $1 a month for AuTalkz via Patreon subs.
Honestly, I'm the one getting the bad end of the deal ($1 a month for 2 comics...possibly 4 if I switch to weekly updates; that's 24 to 48 comics for $12.  Everyone I've spoken to who knows more about money than I do thinks I should charge more).

Now, I've explained my situation; I've explained why I need to do this.  I'm not going to explain again, I'm not going to change my mind, and this is the last time I'll address it. 

Once again, I appreciate the the encouragement from those who understand my financial situation and decision.

As for the others...if anyone wants to unfollow/watch me here on DA, that's your decision.  I'm sorry to see you go, as I said I'll still be posting artwork here (just not AuTalkz issues).
All I ask, besides perhaps a little understanding, is that you do not badmouth me or AuTalkz.

It's okay to be annoyed with someone's decision, but please do not let it get out of hand.  There are many ways I can handle this situation...I could yell right back at people if I wanted to, but I won't.  I could have asked some snarky questions about spending money, but I won't.  I was even tempted to just take the entire AuTalkz folder down, but for the issues which were free, I'm not going to punish everyone just because a handful seem to be trying their darndest to make me feel like I'm a terrible, horrible person for charging for something I create.

So please, in the very least, show that same respect and do not badmouth AuTalkz over this.
Thank you.
I feel like I didn't properly communicate my last status post (it was a lot to take in, looking over it), so I just want a couple things to be clear:

-I'm not disappearing from DA; regular drawings (including some from the AuTalkz cast) will still be uploaded.

-It's just $1 a month to see the AuTalkz comics (which I might start doing weekly since I'll be charging for them) on Patreon.
Only specials (special issues, character profiles which I intend to do, sketches, and sneak-peeks will require a larger pledge).

-The current issues will be staying up on DA; I'm not taking them down due to this.

-I'm not doing this out of greed, and had been thinking about this decision for a long time.
I'm grateful for the couple people who understand why I'm doing this. 
SSI pays at poverty level.  Like I said, I'm getting $530 a month...I can't even afford my own apartment with that (even on food stamps for food).  My car insurance costs about $150 a month, so once that's subtracted, I'm only earning $380 a month on SSI.  That gives me just enough money to maybe get a haircut every couple of months (about $30), pay my credit card bill from groceries and art supplies (about $100), and leaves me with around $250...oh, right.  Cellphone bill is about $60 for a flat rate (I rarely use my phone), and then the cost of pet supplies ($50-80 or so a month).  That leaves me with just over $100 saying that I don't have any extra expenses that month.  I can put in the tiny amount I'm earning on Patreon so far, but there's that pesky limit on how much I can save up...so, every month, that tiny amount goes to help paying bills.
See what I'm dealing with?
Understand yet why I need to push Patreon?
I'm literally living on a poverty level, and if I wasn't still living with my dad, I'd be out on the street because I can't afford housing.  Then, there wouldn't be ANY comics or drawings.  I'm terrified of what's going to happen in the future since my father isn't going to be around forever.

Okay?  I'm not doing this to be greedy or "lock people out behind paywalls".  I'm doing it because I'm an adult and I need to survive.  AuTalkz has been running for TWO YEARS (three, if you count the first season).  I've gotten a little monetary support, but I sadly can't keep doing something on a regular basis which earns me no money.
I wish I could, but I literally can't afford to.  I knew some people would be upset, and I apologize.

Again, I'm not leaving DA...I'll still be uploading drawings here, as well as autism awareness and anti-bullying artwork (perhaps with Kairy and some of the AuTalkz crew, but not in comic format like AuTalkz is).

I wish I could keep doing this for free, especially since autism awareness is important and I wanted it to be free.  That's why I'll maybe make a couple unrelated drawings and artwork and keep them here, but actual AuTalkz issues will be moving to Patreon for $1 a month (if I go weekly, you're getting 3-4 issues for $1.  If I stay monthly, you're getting 2 for $1.  Frankly, I think that's a good/reasonable deal and I'm actually getting the short end of the stick with that pricing).
I do feel that I've covered many important topics already in AuTalkz; I might occasionally post something here if I feel it's super important and should be free for everyone to see.

I've been at war with that for a while; I want it to be free, but I want to get off of SSI and get off of the poverty-level amount they pay me and the possibility of being kicked off the program for no specified reason (I have to go for yearly reviews and interviews with psychologists they choose to question me).  I've had to stop advertising to petsit for people so I don't wind up earning just enough that they'll kick me off of SSI, but less than the amount I'd get on SSI.
It's a balancing game which suxxors, and my life is on the line.

I'm sorry that some of you are angry; I knew that would happen.  If you're not an adult, you'll understand when you get into the working world...especially if you fall into the category of being unable to work (combined with no college degree).  I'd like to be able to get good insurance, because America is freaking DEAD LAST when it comes to medical care and if I want to know I'm getting good care, I have to pay out of pocket because my meager insurance (Medicaid) doesn't cover it.
Hell, Medicare covers more than Medicaid does.  There are a lot of doctors I've had to stop seeing because though they take Medicare patients, they don't take Medicaid patients...and I don't qualify for Medicare.
Not to mention that the government is trying to cut/gut the entire thing and probably always will be looking to do so (especially the Republicans for some reason I don't understand).

I'm turning 35 years old this month.  Most people I know are working successful jobs, are married...some even have kids!  They can afford to have multiple pets, their own apartment (and even their own HOUSE), ect.
Meanwhile, I'm like the epitome of the "still living in mom's basement" (only it's my dad's house).
If I don't do this, I'll wind up like the Giving Tree when she first became a stump.  Give and give for free until there's nothing left...sadly, life can't work like that in the adult world.

I hate it.
I honestly hate that. 
I hate how much value is on money, but it's necessary to live and survive.
I want to keep doing all this stuff for free, but I can't unless I plan to wind up in a gutter somewhere.

This is reality.  I want to make people happy and help folks...and it'd be really awesome if I could find a way to do that and get paid for it.  Right now, this is the only thing which comes close.

_______
Commissions are CLOSED, Requests are CLOSED, Trades are CLOSED.

Please consider supporting my artwork!  You can donate over at my page on Patreon!

AuTalkz; An observational comic providing insight about what it's like living with autism, OCD, and Anxiety!

3DS FC:  4785-5575-0704  (if you add me, drop me a note so I know, and don't forget to tell me your code, too!)

AuTalkz Infinity, the official store for AuTalkz merchandise!

Toby's Tales - Curse of the Stairwell, a Visual Novel game.

Click to check out my fanfiction stories!

Take a peek at The Mystic Den for Zellie items!  All proceeds will go to the American Cancer Society!

Link to Lightening Spliced, a novel written by my best friend who, unfortunately, passed away from cancer in September 2010.  Please check this out if you're interested; all proceeds will go to the American Cancer Society.
  • Listening to: "Wiggle and Wine" by Donchez Dacres
  • Reading: Fanfiction
  • Watching: Braille Skateboarding
  • Playing: Divinity Original Sin 2
Okay, so quickie update:

1.  I will be posting AuTalkz over to Patreon from now on (subscribers only).
--I'm pretty bummed by the lack of response and views on the latest issue, and it got me thinking; everything literally dropped by half (views, favorites...and the response dropped by 90%), so if people aren't going to be viewing it as much here on DA, this is the perfect time to make the switch to Patreon-only.  I don't know what caused the drop, but perhaps it's a sign that I should go ahead with this since I've been on the fence about it for a while. 
The issues which are already out will stay on DA.

The way I work things on Patreon is a monthly-based subscription; it's pretty much no different from an MMO sub or a Netflix account.
I'm going to set the minimum to see the comics at a mere $1; for other bonuses (I plan on making some character sheets, plus the sneak peek of the new character which is up) a minimum pledge of $5 will be needed (basically, Patreon works off of "the larger the pledge, the bigger the reward"; I need to update my Patreon page on that and redo some of the rewards...it's a work in progress).

2.  I have another project I'm planning which is going to be big.
--If I get it working, it will definitely be Patreon-only ($5+ subscribers only) because it will involve much more time and effort than AuTalkz does (and AuTalkz already takes about 6 hours to put out a single issue).

I hate having to push Patreon, but I really want to get off of SSI.  I get a mere $530 a month...the same amount of money a part time worker can make in a week.  I'm also not allowed to ever go over $2000 in assets, which means I can't save any money for the future.
It really, really sucks being on it; and trust me, I'd work if I could (tried and failed for about 7-8 years, and now anxiety is even worse).

But I'm not getting any younger, and AuTalkz is over two years old now. 
No worries, however...I'm not going to stop posting things (and perhaps some non-webcomic autism awareness artwork) here to DA.

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:iconnicwaterfill:
NicWaterfill Featured By Owner May 8, 2018  New Deviant
Hello there, name is Nic.
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:iconmdchan:
mdchan Featured By Owner May 10, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Heyo!
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:iconnicwaterfill:
NicWaterfill Featured By Owner May 11, 2018  New Deviant
I see you have autism as well, I feel the same.
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aabarro13 Featured By Owner Edited Mar 21, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
What is your reaction and what are you gonna do when people saying, "Your (drawing, art, artwork) is (horrible, terrible, ugly, lame, etc.)?"
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:iconmdchan:
mdchan Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
It depends, and I've already dealt with similar comments.  Not everyone is going to like my artwork or my style.  I also know that there's a lot I can and need to approve on; I don't mind constructive criticism.

However, most people who outright say things like that in comments are trolls.  So, I just report the comment, ban the person from my page, hide the comment, and move on.  I've had to do it before (though it was people trolling about me drawing furries). 

I don't even give a single thought to what they might say behind my back, and I really don't care what those sort of buttholes think of my art because they don't matter a single iota to me.  I treat trolls how they deserve to be treated:  A report (if it's a really nasty one), a ban from my page, and then never even a second thought from me.
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Thesckass20 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2018
So...I got the news that three girls attacked a asperger kid with bleach on a school,as time passes I just don't know how the fuck I managed to make it up on the ladder of society,what angers me is that just because of sex they will get a slap on the wrist,that's the kind of reason why death penalty should be reinstated,unless there's harsh consequences nobody will learn to respect us.
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:iconmdchan:
mdchan Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Ungh...I hate it when things like race and sex are the reasons why someone has a "get out of jail free" card.  I hate the term "white privilege", but it's sadly a thing.

"All people are created equal"...but certainly not treated equal.  It's sad that some folks are valued more than others because of stupid things like that.

I'm actually against the death penalty.  Granted, my reasoning is that death is too lenient an option for those sort of people.  They should live their lives in prison and suffer like the people they caused to suffer.  Yea, I guess it's a cruel way of thinking, but death is the easy way out for them; they won't have to take responsibility for their actions if they're dead.  Let 'em rot in jail.
Granted, the prison systems need to be improved.

When I went to an alternative/special-ed high school, there was one guy on the soccer team I was on who was a fairly nice person.  Then, he spent half a year in a juvenile detention center for being caught with illegal drugs (I think it was marijuana), and when he came back his attitude was terrible and he started to pick on me.  Dude went to juvenile prison for one thing, and will probably be sent to jail as an adult (if he's already not rotting in a cell out there) for something more violent.
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kuorueu Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2018
So have you hear about FA(a furry art site) before? I seen a babyfur(regression) comic i like on there.
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:iconmdchan:
mdchan Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Nope, haven't heard of it.
If it's not a fetish site, I'd be interested for sure.  ^^
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kuorueu Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2018
so what did you think about that site i told you about?
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